October 19, 2008, Sunday and i am already in the midst of realising my dream. I am a proud owner of Apache RTR 160, the bike the had been dreaming of since i was in Nagpur... I also own a digital camera - Cannon Powershot SD750. Ooooohh... its awesome. I have already shooted most of my friends... except those who have the biggest significance in my life as far as the word 'friend' go. Pratyush, Mayank, Sanket, Sid and Amar ..... Promit and his digicam are eagerly waiting for a reunion. Come soon.... and let that soon be 'very soon'
Amar thanks to you for sending the cam, i will always be indebted to u.
And as far as my Seabiscuit goes... thanks to all those people who helped me in realising my dream... I might have walked a lonely path towards realising it but for you guys..... the first one worth mentioning is Raj, our editor and my boss and the jack that lifted my life into a higher orbit... then comes Archana, Nirmal, Tanvi, Pooja, Shubhashish and Ashishji.... thanks to all of you.
Special thanks goes to Archana for making my first day on bike memorable...
Apache aka Seabiscuit is one hell of a bike... what sound, what colour, what speed, what pick-up.... u name it and it has it... it can put even a thoroughbred stallion to shame!!! But lets not get into the debate of how a mobike is comparable to horses... its something that only the rider can understand...
So October so far had been rocking. Had been different. And had been memorable. The October of 2008.... Good that i didn't go home. it was worth it... Bought it on 6th of Oct... the day of Mahasashti. And since then till today i have already tarversed the up, down, straight, rough and smooth patches of Mumbai and clocked 780 kilometres so far... another 220 kilometrs to go vefore i zoom beyond 50km per hour speed and much much beyond that... n when i am speeding... NO SOCIAL SERVICE PLEASE. Though i am there to trasport and transfer friends and foes for work and pleasure... but at times no body should come between Seabiscuit and Promit... what say!!
Well, i have also stacked myself with some accessories.. whose need only i can understand.
At times i feel the best times in life are those when you progress materialistically... when the emotions you have is only for material things and thats the crux of happiness. So what if some great men say 'the best things in life cannot be bought... ' very true... and to comlete the adgae.....'they have to be taken on installments or through a credit card' ... and thats what i have done... and am happy!!
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
October approaching
This is September 27th, 2008. The new found passion of blogging some 2-3 months back has lost its sheen. Or perhaps because didnt really had time in all these weeks to log in and pour out.
But anyway, better late than never.... goes the saying.
I have a strong feeling that the month of October is going to be very good for me.... some because of my own efforts and some because things are shaping up in a way that good times, times for some material gains, some spending, some rocking times are gradually seen dawning on the horizon.
So what if i am not going home for Durga Puja, experiences will be much gratifying here. Only coz i have to stay back in Mumbai, that these things are going to happen. And what will i have to do... just take a chill pill, work hard as usual, relax and take on the time second by second. And most importantly, stay quiet and not boast around.... as i at times do... blab out what i want, what i am expecting, what good things are happening to me and around me, who do i like, whom i hate and everything.
Whatever, m gonna enjoy this month .... to the full. No fights, no hatred and astute hard work. Its gonna ROCK and m gonna ROCK ON!!
But anyway, better late than never.... goes the saying.
I have a strong feeling that the month of October is going to be very good for me.... some because of my own efforts and some because things are shaping up in a way that good times, times for some material gains, some spending, some rocking times are gradually seen dawning on the horizon.
So what if i am not going home for Durga Puja, experiences will be much gratifying here. Only coz i have to stay back in Mumbai, that these things are going to happen. And what will i have to do... just take a chill pill, work hard as usual, relax and take on the time second by second. And most importantly, stay quiet and not boast around.... as i at times do... blab out what i want, what i am expecting, what good things are happening to me and around me, who do i like, whom i hate and everything.
Whatever, m gonna enjoy this month .... to the full. No fights, no hatred and astute hard work. Its gonna ROCK and m gonna ROCK ON!!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
In Pune
Pratyush is busy watching a man U vs portsmouth football match and i am here, writing my blog. The day reali went well, feels like i am at home. Aunty's food is something to relish... i should religiously come here every alternate weekend... to feast on good home-made food and some to have a break from the clumsiness and ugliness of my room and of course of Mumbai. (NOTE: I am accusing Mumbai for whatever it is... all of us who stay in Mumbai are responsible for this, but never mind....!!)
Anyway... i will continue writing once i am back as uncle is calling for dinner... M coming UNCLE......
Anyway... i will continue writing once i am back as uncle is calling for dinner... M coming UNCLE......
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Pratyush's place
Hey after almost 2 months i am again back to Pune... Pratyush's hometown and my nostalgia connection. A connection which i have for almost five years now... first for a summer training and for the girl of my life, then for career and now just to chill out.
But everythime i come here, i feel at a place which is much known to me...... may be becasue of Pratyush... aka.. Mickey. Or may be because soembody has done MBA from here for whom i used to do rounds of Hinjewadi or just because of the nostalgia that always pulls me to the city.
I reali wish that i could have a weekend home in this city one day... And of course would come to this city on my bike (when i have it).
Now Sunday morning... 2.25 am, not feeling like sleeping, just wish to sit down and think about the days that i spent here doing all the madness on earth.... ya nostalgia strikes again!!
But everythime i come here, i feel at a place which is much known to me...... may be becasue of Pratyush... aka.. Mickey. Or may be because soembody has done MBA from here for whom i used to do rounds of Hinjewadi or just because of the nostalgia that always pulls me to the city.
I reali wish that i could have a weekend home in this city one day... And of course would come to this city on my bike (when i have it).
Now Sunday morning... 2.25 am, not feeling like sleeping, just wish to sit down and think about the days that i spent here doing all the madness on earth.... ya nostalgia strikes again!!
Apache RTR 160 waiting
Apache RTR 160 Refresh.... Its coming and this time its really coming, or so i want to believe. Coz, its now or never.... Thats my queen, my latest crush and i will her this time. especially when the desire is at its peak, there's no power on earth that can stop one from achieveing and i am consistently in love with this.... and i know how to win my love... and its not because i can purchase it... but because my desire to get it is much deeper and stronger than any of my current amibitions.... My Queen m coming... wait for our first date.... and i will bowl you out!!!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Isn’t it time to take a stand and move ahead….?? Isn’t it time to stop running after a mirage, after something for which I don’t have much significance, letting go off something that doesn’t understands me, that has no time, orientation, motivation to treat me as what I am…. ??
Why should I spend time behind something where my existence is common, where I lose my specialty, my uniqueness, my original self, my ambitions which brought me to Mumbai? True, I now realize that I am gradually cruising towards something where my only existence is reduced to a name in the long list of wishful thinkers!!
This is not what I am… This is not why I came here for. I know my abilities have brought me so far instead of committing blunders in the true sense of the word in my life. And my abilities can take me places only if I am consistent and persistent. But where am I heading now…..??
Spending my day and night thinking of not the noblest idea which made me a rebel in my family and amongst my friends… but thinking of something which is sapping me off my energy and subtly killing the impossible ambitions….. which I thought only I can achieve and accomplish!
Yes, it is time to move ahead. To tell myself that some things are not worth the effort… perhaps that’s why I didn’t ever put in that extra effort - because in some obscure corner of my heart I knew that IT IS NOT WORTH THE EFFORT!! That’s what has held me back for so many months from going after what I now prefer calling a ‘mirage’. In hindsight, it is actually a useless addiction, an obsession, a run where, in the end, even the victory of ‘Ego’ is the defeat of ‘I’.
Well, that’s it… now when I read back… I realize that I have become a self-obsessed freak… something which was so badly detested by me some years ago….. To prove the point just consider … In the above 342 words write-up there are 20 ‘I’s’; nine ‘Me’s’ and 15 ‘My’s’!!!
Can I really write something without these words now… what about the world, the blasts in Bangalore and Ahmedabad, what about the state of affairs in the society, about politics, about business, about friends, about family and above all the country?????
This simple realization means that ‘I’ is no more the sacred word for me because it is driven by only self-obsessed pursuits. Life has actually started revolving around myself… clogged in the cobwebs of SELF…. And that’s the reason why a career like journalism has lost its sheen for me…. I HAVE BECOME SELFISH…. SELF OBSESSED….. SELF CENTRED!!!!
Know it well that these are negative auto-suggestions which can push me deeper into loneliness and shove me into teething solitude.
And if we are strong enough, we can learn and change… I will have to change…..
I know ‘I’ was my sole companion when I was passing through the most grueling phase of troubles and tribulations some three years ago… then I changed, worked for the people for two years… weaved dreams surrounding them and their best interest and ‘I’ became a sacred word… but it has become corrupted now….
My life has started revolving around two people – me and that one thing that I mentioned above … call it obsession, passion, desire or just a liking.
Whatever it is… it cannot be love… which I always thought was the most sacred of all feelings…. Love cannot make you selfish, it cannot make you self-centered. Its work is to motivate you and make you do something for those who want it. I have love in my heart and it is for all those who need it and the world needs it!!!
I knew this some time back, I knew this some one year ago, I knew this that people need me and I need them even more…. And I was moving straight. Then one find day I was lost… found myself stranded in the midst of thousands of people who are more selfish than self interested.
And the heart that knew how to love one and all – lost the feeling. Now, I am moving through a mist of uncountable emotions which has everything - but not love.
True love will come; it will come through these multitudes that I love. It will come through the effort to selflessly trying to do something for the world, for the people and for all those who cannot give me something in return in cash or kind.
I cannot wander behind just one person…. behind just one thing, especially when that is beautiful to an extent that it makes you selfish… something that makes me selfish and confused and pushes me to a time when I was learning the basics of relationships…
All great pursuits are selfish, noble and makes one grow from within and in that process grows the world which is influenced by that pursuit…. Higher the pursuit… higher the influence and higher the impact and more encompassing the change.
And the change has to be initiated first from within…. Change yourself and you will change the world…
TRY TRY and TRY until you succeed PERIOD
Why should I spend time behind something where my existence is common, where I lose my specialty, my uniqueness, my original self, my ambitions which brought me to Mumbai? True, I now realize that I am gradually cruising towards something where my only existence is reduced to a name in the long list of wishful thinkers!!
This is not what I am… This is not why I came here for. I know my abilities have brought me so far instead of committing blunders in the true sense of the word in my life. And my abilities can take me places only if I am consistent and persistent. But where am I heading now…..??
Spending my day and night thinking of not the noblest idea which made me a rebel in my family and amongst my friends… but thinking of something which is sapping me off my energy and subtly killing the impossible ambitions….. which I thought only I can achieve and accomplish!
Yes, it is time to move ahead. To tell myself that some things are not worth the effort… perhaps that’s why I didn’t ever put in that extra effort - because in some obscure corner of my heart I knew that IT IS NOT WORTH THE EFFORT!! That’s what has held me back for so many months from going after what I now prefer calling a ‘mirage’. In hindsight, it is actually a useless addiction, an obsession, a run where, in the end, even the victory of ‘Ego’ is the defeat of ‘I’.
Well, that’s it… now when I read back… I realize that I have become a self-obsessed freak… something which was so badly detested by me some years ago….. To prove the point just consider … In the above 342 words write-up there are 20 ‘I’s’; nine ‘Me’s’ and 15 ‘My’s’!!!
Can I really write something without these words now… what about the world, the blasts in Bangalore and Ahmedabad, what about the state of affairs in the society, about politics, about business, about friends, about family and above all the country?????
This simple realization means that ‘I’ is no more the sacred word for me because it is driven by only self-obsessed pursuits. Life has actually started revolving around myself… clogged in the cobwebs of SELF…. And that’s the reason why a career like journalism has lost its sheen for me…. I HAVE BECOME SELFISH…. SELF OBSESSED….. SELF CENTRED!!!!
Know it well that these are negative auto-suggestions which can push me deeper into loneliness and shove me into teething solitude.
And if we are strong enough, we can learn and change… I will have to change…..
I know ‘I’ was my sole companion when I was passing through the most grueling phase of troubles and tribulations some three years ago… then I changed, worked for the people for two years… weaved dreams surrounding them and their best interest and ‘I’ became a sacred word… but it has become corrupted now….
My life has started revolving around two people – me and that one thing that I mentioned above … call it obsession, passion, desire or just a liking.
Whatever it is… it cannot be love… which I always thought was the most sacred of all feelings…. Love cannot make you selfish, it cannot make you self-centered. Its work is to motivate you and make you do something for those who want it. I have love in my heart and it is for all those who need it and the world needs it!!!
I knew this some time back, I knew this some one year ago, I knew this that people need me and I need them even more…. And I was moving straight. Then one find day I was lost… found myself stranded in the midst of thousands of people who are more selfish than self interested.
And the heart that knew how to love one and all – lost the feeling. Now, I am moving through a mist of uncountable emotions which has everything - but not love.
True love will come; it will come through these multitudes that I love. It will come through the effort to selflessly trying to do something for the world, for the people and for all those who cannot give me something in return in cash or kind.
I cannot wander behind just one person…. behind just one thing, especially when that is beautiful to an extent that it makes you selfish… something that makes me selfish and confused and pushes me to a time when I was learning the basics of relationships…
All great pursuits are selfish, noble and makes one grow from within and in that process grows the world which is influenced by that pursuit…. Higher the pursuit… higher the influence and higher the impact and more encompassing the change.
And the change has to be initiated first from within…. Change yourself and you will change the world…
TRY TRY and TRY until you succeed PERIOD
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
ONCE AGAIN
Once again in the same mire
Once again the same desire.
Once again weaving dreams
Once again the same old scenes!
Life springs in deja vu
And comes back to square one,
Again becomes special the word 'YOU'
Again hope ushers in from the rays of sun!
Again i want to grow from within
My ambitions again have meaning,
Again the dormant man wakes up
And wants to move beyond weaning!
Faith and hope opens its eyes
Again dons the battle gear
Once again i want to shun my vice
And care for somebody's tear!
Aware i was for a long time
That it happened in a year
And said i am an ant in the battle
Among others i was always a mere
Know it not I
What is inthe time's lap,
But again i see the blue sky
And with wishes my wings flap!
Once again i want to live and die
Once again i want to cry
Again i want to live with someone
Once again for someone i want to die!!
Once again in the same mire
Once again the same desire.
Once again weaving dreams
Once again the same old scenes!
Life springs in deja vu
And comes back to square one,
Again becomes special the word 'YOU'
Again hope ushers in from the rays of sun!
Again i want to grow from within
My ambitions again have meaning,
Again the dormant man wakes up
And wants to move beyond weaning!
Faith and hope opens its eyes
Again dons the battle gear
Once again i want to shun my vice
And care for somebody's tear!
Aware i was for a long time
That it happened in a year
And said i am an ant in the battle
Among others i was always a mere
Know it not I
What is inthe time's lap,
But again i see the blue sky
And with wishes my wings flap!
Once again i want to live and die
Once again i want to cry
Again i want to live with someone
Once again for someone i want to die!!
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